i dont know what to do ??? very comfusing !! all i wish is very simple, i just want to be happy!

if there are GOD. PLZ!for your kindness marcy PLZ give me some happiness!

noone understand me! noone!

what can i accauratly do??? Damn!

never mind! time will go pass ! when i time go pass i will be standing up again slowly.

those day i live in the darkness, is prepare for i live more beatiful tomorrow!

i will remember these day, i will and i surely will.

those day i didnt do much just went out and play ! and i forgot most of the thing i done already. so dont ask what i have done!

Today when i wake up! my dad shout at me again! but i dont really care ! he think he know everything! but he ain no GOD! so please someone to tell him to shut up! he always think i am wrong ! in his eyes ! my sister and me is only rubbish! FXXK Him.

9/2/03

when i  wake up i go to school! then have luch with theo and jade! then we go play game in CWB ! we have lot of fun! then i meet up with jakie and michelle. after  we wait for other michelle and chan and emily. then me and michelle  went up to jakie's house. then we watch TV .(i want to say some thing i didnt have a borle! so please shut up!)

then we went to play badminton. then we went to eat dinner! after that go home with michelle then go home and sleep.

why am i always so neggative i want to kill myself! life is Sxxt! please i want to kill myself so much! my dad is like that! even michelle is like that too!

what am i living for?????????

when can i end my live?

Today go dancing ! cool! my show is perform on april! then walk about in TST then about 6 i went to lo lun hun to have a big fat meal!is was great i love the food!

i also find i am getting fat ! i need more exercise! damn! how come i get this fat! very angry michelle didnt pick up my call! i try to phone her all day long! but she only call me once!

i am so so so so piss off! anyway i need so sleep ! i am so tired!

why? i dont want to think about the pass anymore! why do i still think about it ? and why do i still cry? someone please tell me! i just want to be happy! i try to be happy! that all! but is it that hard?

 i dont want to fXXking cry or upsad anymore!

 please dont let me be alone! i am so afriad!please someone help me!  i want to get out of this!